Saturday, January 28, 2012

So Tired.

via Tara on Pinterest
So I’ve been slacking on my blogging this week.
It’s been kind of a rough week, lots of stuff going on in the fam and I have been struggling with some major headaches for the past couple of days. Headaches are seriously draining sometimes! I’m stressed. But today is a better day. On a random but related note, I think I’m going to nix the Project 366 on here. I have this nifty app on my iPod that I can keep up with pretty easily but I just can’t get on my computer every day to post my pics on here. Most days lately I’m falling asleep not long after the kids are in tucked into bed. Anywho…I hope all of you are having a great weekend!

p.s. Shelly, in case you read this, I got my cookbook today and I love it!
Thank you again!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

For ME?!

Twice in one week, two lovely lady bloggers have made me feel like winning is possible!
(LOL I’m feeling a ‘lil dramatic because I never win anything!)

Hilary from Measure Once Cut Twice was sweet enough
to choose me for this award, and I am so thankful!
Thank you, Hilary!
Stop by her blog and check her out, everyone!
She has a lot of great DIY projects that would be great to try –
I personally love the Valentine’s wreath post and I hope to try it with my kids

About the Liebster Blog Award: Liebster is German and means 'dearest' or 'beloved' but it can also mean 'favorite'. The idea of the Liebster award is to bring attention to blogs with less than 200 followers in the hopes that it will bring many new friends/followers. So, in the spirit of good fun I am passing this award on to five other bloggers.
Please stop by and visit them.

The Rules are:
1. Show your thanks to the blogger who gave you the award by linking back to them.
2. Reveal your five picks for the award and let them know.
3. Post the award on your blog.
4. Bask in the love from the most supportive people on the blogshare-other bloggers.
5. Finally and the best rule of all..........have fun and spread the love!
I'm passing this award onto the following wonderful blogs!
Stop on by and check them out!!
1.) Pursuit of Felicity
Two is Better Than One
Miss Marie Louise
She Loves Food and Flowers
5.) Gnome-n-Birdy

Monday, January 23, 2012

Thank You, Shelly!

I would like to say thank you so very much to
Shelly over at She Loves Food and Flowers
I just won this awesome cookbook giveaway which she hosted…
This cookbook will be so perfect for me, considering pasta is a staple in my home –
It’s delicious and it goes a long way for a hungry family with two children!
A Pasta Lovers Paradise? Perfect!

Thank you again, Shelly!!
Be sure to check out her blog, and her many delicious recipes!
She Loves Food and Flowers

Friday, January 20, 2012

Emotional Overload

My Dad and Me <3I am happy to say that my Dad’s surgery went well yesterday…his leg looks wonderful compared to the way his other leg looked last summer after he had the bypass surgery on that one. He will be in the hospital until Monday or Tuesday and then will hopefully go right home and not to rehab. We are praying there will be no infection involved this time and he will heal well without complications. Last summer was a living hell for him and my family but this time it appears things are on the right track. I feel bad for him because I know he feels like he’s back at square one -- as soon as he was completely healed on the right side they ripped him open on the left side. Even though he knew that was going to be the case all along, that has to be maddening. But at least it’s over. The doctors are monitoring his kidneys right now – they said his levels are up, whatever that means. All I know is he is sick of being poked and prodded every six hours with needles to have his blood taken. But we keep reminding him – it’s temporary – and he will go home soon.
The worst is over.

You may have read my last post about my daughter’s gerbil being gravely ill…
I checked on him one last time before going to bed Wednesday night. He wasn’t responding to my touch anymore. He was breathing – but barely – and I knew he’d be gone by morning. I had helped him to the front of the cage right next to the food and water just in case, but when I woke up at 5am yesterday to go with my parents to the hospital, I checked on him and he was gone. Laying on his side, perfectly still and peaceful. I woke my husband to tell him and we agreed that we should get him out of the cage before the kids saw him. While he did that, I gently woke up my daughter and told her the news – she wouldn’t look at me or say anything, she just cried in her bed. It really sucked for me to have to leave right after telling her, but my Dad had to be at the hospital by 6am, so I had to go. My husband handled everything with the kids. He kept them home from school, he hugged them and kissed away their tears. He buried Skrat (that’s the gerbil’s name) in the backyard flower garden. We’ll plant new seeds there in the spring. I wasn’t sure my daughter would make it through the school day today – she cried all morning and tried to get us to let her stay home another day because she was afraid her friends would ask her why she wasn’t in school yesterday and she didn’t want to have to talk about it. But she went to school and made it through the day just fine. I know it will be rough for her for a while – she loved and cared for Skrat for three and a half years (which is long for a gerbil!). Now we are left with Cuddly – Skrat’s littermate – who is still miraculously huge and healthy but has always taken a back seat to his brother in the attention department. Skrat was the favorite around here. But now Cuddly is going to need extra TLC. Hopefully this weekend, the kids will take some time to bond with him a little better…
Things like this almost make you never want to have pets.
But I honestly feel that animals bring so much joy into life…
I can’t imagine life without our furry friends.

So today took a real toll on me (on all of us) emotionally. First of all because of worrying about how my Dad was going to do in surgery – if his blood pressure would be a danger to him and if he would make it out of the complicated surgery intact. Second of all because I always thought that when Skrat passed away I would be home to help my daughter deal with her overwhelming emotions. But because of the timing, I couldn’t be here. Thankfully, my husband handled everything beautifully.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

January 18th

Normally on January 18th,
I post a message to my beloved Uncle Tommy who died on this day in 1994…
(I love you and miss you ALWAYS Uncle Tommy.
Even after 18 long years, not a day goes by that I don’t think about you…xoxoxo)

But tonight, my heart is heavy for another reason. One of my daughter’s pet gerbils – her favorite one who she has loved and adored for three and a half years now - is on his way up to Heaven himself. He has aged and slowed down a bit over the past month or so, but over these past couple of days he took a turn for the worse. Especially today. I don’t think he’s going to make it through the night. I am heartsick. My poor girl went to bed sobbing, and it’s so awful that I cannot do much of anything to console her. I keep telling her how wonderful she has been to him and his brother, how she has been the best owner any animal could ask for, but naturally that doesn’t take away her pain of knowing he’s not going to be here much longer. Here’s hoping I’m wrong and that he has a miraculous recovery by morning…miracles do happen. Right? I love this little guy too – he’s been a little furball full of joy in our house for so long now… I don’t want him to go.

This part of having pets really sucks.
(I’m breaking the rules - these were not taken today. I couldn’t bring myself to take any pictures today)
It’s amazing how much pets can mean to their owners – even teeny tiny pets like him.
Red heart
Well, with hope and positive thoughts in my mind, I should probably get some sleep.
Because bright and early tomorrow morning, my Dad is having surgery again.
Some of you may recall his ordeal from last summer when he almost lost his right leg due to complete arterial blockages…Well, tomorrow – they will do bypasses on his other leg, which has the same problem.

Wow I’m so full of good news today aren’t I??

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Hockey Buddies

One of the times my kids get along best is when they're playing hockey together in our driveway. Shockingly, I played with them today instead of just sitting on my butt and complaining how cold I was. Actually, considering it's 50 degrees January in Buffalo, I don't have any right to complain. I would like some snow at least once this winter, though...Anyway, we had a lot of fun playing hockey today and Samantha loved trying out her new hockey gear that she got for Christmas. I swear she could kick ass in a little league team if she just knew how to ice skate. She could probably help out our struggling Sabres too.

We had a great day. I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

My New Year

So this is the time of year when everyone is starting in on those resolutions.
I usually make one that I can’t keep for more than a week or two.
You know the typical ones - eating right, getting more sleep, organizing, exercising...
But I have seriously thought about what I want 2012 to be about, and…I’m ready.
My resolution for 2012 is to simply be happy.
Don’t laugh – it may sound silly, but it’s something that I have to consciously work on.
My kids, husband and family make me happy of course – I love them dearly and they are my world.
But they are not who I am.
And that’s just it -- I want to be happy with me.
I want to figure out what I truly love and enjoy - as an individual – besides as a mommy, wife, daughter…
I used to know exactly who I was, what truly moved me and what spoke to my inner being.
Right now, there are those few things I know for certain…
I love my kids and I love my husband. I love my family. I love photography…
Those are the main, essential ingredients in my life and I thank God for them every day,
but there has to be more to me and I want to find it all.
That is what 2012 is going to be all about for me.

Please don’t mistake this for selfishness…
I just happen to believe it’s true that in order for a person to be truly happy,
they need to accept, love and be happy with who they are. That is my focus.
I think it’s the one thing that has been missing from my life all along.